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Reset: Goals to Accomplish within 2017

With the New Year approaching as cliche as it sounds, I have a list of goals that I plan on accomplishing. Yes, they seem extreme, but why the fuck not?


  1. Get a passport
  2. Travel to Japan & LA
  3. Work for NYLON (The digital editor faved my tweet, that's a sign right?)
  4. Work on becoming a full-time content creator
  5. Auditon for Wilhelmina Modeling agency
  6. Find better ways to deal with stress (try to focus on what you can improve in the future, instead of what happened in the past)
  7. Come out of my comfort zone & socialize

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[OOTN] By Your Side | Hoody


I bought this grid print maxi about two years ago, I don't really like it. So instead of burning it and burying it in the closet, I tried to style it. I wouldn't wear this outside though because, firstly this is knit material (I'd freeze my ass off) and second, my butt is huge. I don't need attetion there.

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A Mini-Update on a Thing Called 'Life'

How's everyone doing? I'm doing quite well. I haven't had any anxiety attacks for the past month or so, which is honestly a great thing to admit. In the beginning of the semester, I was put on edge trying to maintain a perfect GPA, but of course, things don't work out so easily. There's a thing called time, which I always try to beat but that's just inhumanly impossible. Aside from the anxiety attacks, my depression isn't as bad as it was before. The only thing that I have to deal with is exhaustion. I'm literally always exhausted, even after taking hour long naps. It's something I'm trying to deal with but it's just frustrating at times, especially if I have important things to do.

Nonetheless, next Monday is the last day of finals for me. So I'll be relieved once that day comes and I'll be able to focus more on projects and my career. During this month-long break, I also plan on expanding my writing, reading, and knowledge to better myself as a person for the sake of my future. I'm excited for next semester though, I'm retaking the two classes that I failed, so once I score well in them, it'll wipe out my GPA. Meaning, I'll be off of probation (hopefully), because the way that Japanese language class is looking...

Speaking of Japanese, this Spring break I'll be spending the week in Osaka, Japan. I'm so excited since I'll be traveling out of the country for the very first time and by myself. Since I've taken the language class, I guess you could say it motivated me to take this trip. My mom also gave me the extra push to go. I'm excited to get some inspo from their views on the fashion industry and take kawaii photos of the food! 

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Stress Levels, Japan, Moving Out, New Projects



Hey, y'all~ I hope all is well. Things with me have been decent. I've been taking it easy on the stress levels that school has placed on me.  I've been attempting to be more active. I've been dancing again and I've taken on different projects.

From writing pitches for top fashion magazines to receiving bitchy attitudes in return. Life is great, lol. I'm alive and well. I'm taking each step with a brighter outlook towards my future. I'm going to Japan for Spring Break 2017, I'm super excited about that! Time to put this Japanese class to good use, right? Annnnnd I'll be writing for a girl power blog. Interviewing designers & stylists. Life is really great.

I'm just so blessed to be a creator. To be able to work on my craft. Yes, I'm exhausted. Yes, I have dark circles & eye bags; but it's worth it.

ALSO, I'll be moving on my own starting in August. I'm moving into a single dorm, just to get a jiff of how it feels to live alone. Adulthood is scary but so enticing.




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As a writer, I don't like being silenced. This is my voice.

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How To Deal with Sexual Assault..

you don't.

In middle school, I believe it was the seventh grade, I was sexually assaulted by my gym teacher. He was erect and touched me inappropriately. After it happened, I remember not addressing it immediately. I don't know why I was scared. I remember dropping subtle hints about it to my assigned homeroom teacher.  She then proceeded to explain to me that I wasn't the only student to feel uncomfortable around the gym teacher. 

As time went on (about 2-3 days), I told someone. That part is a blur but I do remember having a meeting with everyone. I did a Q&A with the police and everything. And you know what? He wasn't arrested and he wasn't stripped of his position. The bastard still had a job there; He still works there.

All they did was excuse my absences for about a month, I was forced to return back to his class. After the whole incident, I remember being nonchalant about it. I didn't really know how to feel. But once I went to eighth grade, I became depressed. Like to the point that I wanted to die. I've never voiced out that part but oddly enough the only thing that stopped me was going to high school. I wanted to know what it was like. I wanted the whole High School Musical experience but obviously, we do not live in a Disney-like world. My depression went away once I started, at least that's what I thought. 

Fast forwarding to now, how to deal with sexual assault? You don't. Due to being nonchalant about the assault for most of the time, I think that's catching up with me now. Nowadays I've found myself depressed but I don't desire to harm myself in any way. I find myself being more emotional after keeping in these feelings for so long. I'll be okay, everything will be okay. I'm a strong girl despite having anxiety attacks most times.

Also, I've found writing, which I do often, as a great coping mechanism. I feel at ease now, writing this out. Anyways, be sure to always stand up for yourself and kick someone's ass if needed. Things do get better!







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#TBT | New Years Eve

Dress: H&M | Shoes: Zooshoo


This photo was taken by a friend of mines during our collab NYE's OOTN video. Not only did I manage to pull through after an eight-hour shift at Dunkin Donuts but my makeup lasted almost 24-hours! Ahmazing! I also, adore this sequined dress. The original price was about $300 but I caught it on sale for $60. Did you say worth it?






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Anxiety and Depression



Illiteracy runs in my family. Most can't properly read or write.

The pressure that I get because of it, gives me anxiety. 

Which often leads to depression.

I don't like talking about my depression and no one really knows about it, except for my boyfriend.

Long story short, I'm tired of school. 

Not only do I have to deal with the pressure of finishing but the whole academic probation thing is shit.

I'm not dumb, I just rather waste my down time doing something else.

Yes, I sound lazy but I'm not.

If the courses don't relate to my English Lit major, why am I taking them? 

Money's being wasted to pay for classes to relate to other people. How dumb.

I'm over school because the anxiety and depression is uncalled for, honestly. 

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You Know What Sucks?

Being told that you won't graduate on time. The love-hate relationship that I have for college is something serious. I mean yes, I did transfer but all of my credits were transferable since both schools are within the CUNY system. The whole reason I transferred was to become a double major for both English lit. and communications. But the intended goal of graduating in 2018 is waaaaaaay behind now or is it? So because of the stupid policy I'm officially a sophomore in my third year of college, yippee~! Oh, it gets better because of credits and shitty courses yo home girl is on academic probation. No pressure, loljk. But I've been thinking, once I get off of probation which I'm aiming to be off by the end of this semester (Fall 2016); I'll just minor in journalism and keep English lit. as a major since I'm practically done. Though I need to get advisement before I jump!

I hate school, time to be a skripper!

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NYFW Recap/// KYE, VFILES, CUSTO BARCELONA


KYE x VFILES

I've always allowed my anxiety to get the best of me and I think I've missed out on a lot of opportunities that way. But nonetheless, I'm extremely grateful that I've noticed that now and can make a change ASAP.

Since this past Summer as mentioned before, I've been working for a few fashion stylists. Trying my very best, I was able to push my anxiety to the side and network. THIS WAS THE BEST DECISION THAT I COULD'VE EVER DONE- fyi.

Being the fashion and beauty columnist of Seoulwave is a cool title but I was lacking tremendously in this area. I thought of a few possible articles to write in terms of k-beauty and k-fashion but I had nothing. As August approached, I realized that New York Fashion Week was around the corner. I had to think fast. I came up with the conclusion of just attending shows as press. Simple and exciting! 

One of the stylists that I work closely with gave me a list of designers and it happened so fast. Seoulwave was invited to about ten shows. How amazing, huh?

Of course as time went on, RSVPs were made and confirmed. I was luckily able to attend two shows this year. It would've been more but I have to prioritize school since I'm practically on academic probation...meh.

But these kind of things are a blessing in disguise. Seoulwave sent some crew members to attend the events which made them extremely happy. It was their first time attending NYFW as well as runway shows. It made me even happier knowing that I helped contribute to their first experience.

Nonetheless I attended Korean fashion designer, Kathleen Hanhee Kye's collaboration presentation show along with VFILES at their SoHo location. (KYE + Eyeye). I also attended Spain fashion designer Custo Dalmau's Custo Barcelona SS17 runway show. I had assigned seating and I felt so fancy~ Though I've came a long way, I feel so blessed just to be attending such events. All of this hard work really does pay off but I'll tell you one thing - that's certain. I'm not even done yet, this is only the beginning!  




                             

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Cheers to New Beginnings

(I'll be jumping around so pls bare with me)

I've started school recently and I'm actually anticipating for the future outcome of grades. So far so good; I mean- I don't work full time at Dunkin anymore. So, I can really focus on actually learning something.

This is my first time ever taking a college level language class and the thought of it's difficulty actually motivates me to study (and I never study)! Japanese is sorta easy once you know the alphabet, it seems but only time will tell as the lessons progress.

Blessing in disguise much? But I've decided to study abroad next July in South Korea and Japan. This is truly a new chapter in my life that I'm extremely excited for. In regards of this trip, I've came up with a list of goals/answers that I'll be pursuing during my journey. From the whole idea of creating a name for myself in the media coverage industry to the whole history of harajuku/j-fashion in Japan. I need to know how to get from 'A' to 'B'  and what made things, what they are. If that makes any sense?!

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It's the first week of September and living in New York, that means New York Fashion Week is approaching. I've only had the chance to attend three shows about two years ago while I was interning for Rachel et Nicole. Now that I'm older and much wiser, I'll be able to appreciate this fashion season as a whole.

Being the K-Beauty/K-Fashion columnist for Seoulwave has its perks. Not only will I be attending NYFW but I'll be doing coverage on behalf of Seoulwave. Which is practice for my dream career! I'll be attending three shows (and counting) and one of the shows will be for designer Kathleen Kye. She has worked with Kpop idols such as Big Bang, CL of 2NE1, Irene Kim, HyunA, and more to list a few. Whoop!

Anyways I believe that's all for now! Until next time my friends~



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Thank You Summer 16

Dear Summer,

I appreciate you for once, despite the nasty humidity. Though you were emotional, you were eventful. From a brain tumor scare to coming home at 5am from partying; who would've thought?

Of course, in the process I've learned a lot. I was able to overcome somewhat of depression I had in regards of my career options. I've always had the passion to write. From poetry to writing fan fiction, it was-is something I love to do. Wanting a career in writing and connecting it with my interest for Korean pop culture, wasn't difficult. Finding the right company for me was.

I was at a disadvantage though. I didn't (and still don't) know how to speak or read in Korean. How the hell did I manage to procrastinate for almost ten years? That's actually quite scary, huh? But my desire for writing about Korean pop culture didn't stop me. I mean, I practically applied to many Korean-related news outlets, that I could.

It wasn't until mid-April, where I received an email from KpopStarz who had taken interest in me. I was shocked af because a colleague of mine told me it was hard to become a writer for them. Everything they did, or so people have said, had to be a certain way. Pure perfection. But things happen for a reason and Seoulwave snatched me up.

Working with Seoulwave has been pure bliss. Though I'm still new to the company, I didn't expect to be a media coverage writer and attend events on behalf of the company. Everything has happened so fast and I couldn't be more happier on how my career is going thus far.

I've interviewed The Barberettes, a doo-woop Korean Indie trio. One of the members wrote Lee Hi's title track "Hold My Hand" from her recent album, Seoulite. I've written coverage for South Korea's rising R&B prince, Dean; g.o.d member and soloist Kim Tae Woo, and more just to list a few.

Everything about this Summer was amazing! Not only did I join the Seoulwave team but I began my journey as a freelance stylist assistant. In other words, I would travel throughout NYC to pickup designer clothes for editorial photo shoots. On good days, when I'm not working at Dunkin Donuts, I'd help assist on shooting days. One of my coworkers jokes around about how I'm living the "Carrie Diaries' life" but I'm just exploring my options. I'm only 20, I should see what I like and dislike, huh?

Anyways, thank you Summer 16 for the experiences and eventful nights.

Until next year,
Desiree B.

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